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Finally. The first tentative draft of the episode list for the...

Sun, 19 May 2013 05:12:59 -0400

Finally. The first tentative draft of the episode list for the first season is complete. #nowforthehardpart #akadoingeverythingelse

No More Anchors

Sun, 19 May 2013 03:22:00 -0400

I don’t know what I want and I feel great about that fact.

My year off from school is coming to its end, and I honestly couldn’t be happier about it. I have more than overstayed my time here on Long Island this year and what’s refreshing is I don’t think there’s going to be another period that will last as long as this one has. I think, at most, I’ll be staying here for the three months that is summer break until I finish school, if that long, and then live somewhere else entirely. This is it. This is the last year of my time that will be spent in this place.

Whether I’m actually doing well for myself or if I’m shit broke, I will never be here, in Commack, Long Island, for any longer than four months at a time.

That’s a terrifying thought on one hand, because I’ve lived here as far back as I can remember, and taking that step out to another place, permanently, is an enormously huge, gigantically monstrous one.

On the other hand, there is a whole new set of thousands of options and places to go and people to meet. My brain can’t even comprehend how many people there are out there that I haven’t met yet and places I haven’t been to or lived in and just experiences that I’ve yet to have. It’s exciting. And I finally feel ready to go and face all that.

Most of the people I knew dearly have moved on and gone on to their big and better things. They’re gone. And the people I have left are starting to pull away too; either they’re beginning to do their great big things or they’re so stuck in bad decisions that they’re never gonna leave. And the things I have here aren’t all that much; my car’s on its way out, my job is soul-sucking…and that’s it. I don’t have much. No girlfriend, my family’s dying for me to just fucking leave, and my friends are finally doing their own thing like me or stuck in quicksand.

And while normally, I may be depressed by that fact and get sucked into a term I just came up with through an accidental typo called “the quicksad,” instead, I feel free. I’ve got no baggage, no material things, no people holding me like an anchor. It’s just me and the rest of my life in front of me.

There is nothing left for me here and there is nothing left to lose.

And it feels amazing.

I don’t know what this means but it seems like a very...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:02:28 -0400

I don’t know what this means but it seems like a very important plot point.

Fuck you, tumblr.

12.1.13

Sat, 18 May 2013 05:49:10 -0400

12.1.13

thefrogman: Infinite Nap by Claire Jarvis [website | tumblr |...

Sat, 18 May 2013 03:44:43 -0400

thefrogman:

Infinite Nap by Claire Jarvis [website | tumblr | twitter]

This summer I am seeing at least one of my tumblr friends in person goddamn it

‘On Ice’ by Chris ThileI’ve got the itch to make music...

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:11:16 -0400

‘On Ice’ by Chris Thile
I’ve got the itch to make music again.

Band photo.

Fri, 17 May 2013 02:13:00 -0400

Band photo.

doctormeow: tifferini: Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D - Official...

Fri, 17 May 2013 01:47:11 -0400

doctormeow:

tifferini:

Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D - Official Trailer (x)

THERE WE HAVE IT FOLKS

HOLY SH IT YES PLEASE

theportsofcallandmorrow: Open your eyes. This record.

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:33:42 -0400

theportsofcallandmorrow:

Open your eyes.

This record.

Nobody liked the beard, so I shaved. Sad part is, you can barely...

Mon, 13 May 2013 02:38:46 -0400

Nobody liked the beard, so I shaved. Sad part is, you can barely tell. #eitherwaysuckit

‘Add it Up’ by Violent FemmesOne of my Top 10 favorite albums of...

Sat, 11 May 2013 19:12:04 -0400

‘Add it Up’ by Violent Femmes
One of my Top 10 favorite albums of all time.

whiskeyandcigarettes: what i really want is that new owen album.

Tue, 07 May 2013 02:56:18 -0400

whiskeyandcigarettes:

what i really want is that new owen album.

‘You’re a Animal’ by Jonathan BouletThis album is goddamn...

Tue, 07 May 2013 00:49:45 -0400

‘You’re a Animal’ by Jonathan Boulet
This album is goddamn incredible.

I’ve been happier the past three days than I’ve been for the last two months at home....

Sun, 05 May 2013 05:02:53 -0400

I’ve been happier the past three days than I’ve been for the last two months at home. I’m just surrounded with people I love and enjoy being around (even if they don’t like being around me, which I’m not sure if they are or not, but I’m so happy that I’m not bothered by it), and I’m doing things that are bringing me back to my original train of thought: I want to be a musician.

The past few years, frankly, it’s felt like I had to keep telling myself I wanted to be a musician because I have nothing else and, after devoting over a decade to it, it was something I had to do. I thought I’d reached the point of no return. But I’ve felt a change in thinking wash over me. I’m now gonna start interning at a studio, I played a gig today that made me remember how much I love/miss drumming, I feel great about going back to school and doing nothing but music and I know a lot of incredible musicians who, even after transferring and rarely seeing them, I still get the chance to play with.

I had a feeling I never experienced before today, and it was genuine excitement for the future. I actually couldn’t wait to be thirty and start a new chapter, meet new people and do things I’ve yet to do. Basically, despite the fact that my computer got busted today and I hooked up with someone I didn’t really want to hook up with last night, I am in a great place and I finally feel like I’m exiting this period of strange funk I’ve been in for years. There’s a lot of good coming and I’m very nearly ready to face it and grab every single opportunity.

‘This Song Is Called Ragged’ by Jonathan BouletI love this guy.

Sat, 04 May 2013 14:02:28 -0400

‘This Song Is Called Ragged’ by Jonathan Boulet
I love this guy.

Probably my favorite episode of television.

Sat, 04 May 2013 10:26:35 -0400

Probably my favorite episode of television.

Favorite moment of the series.

Sat, 04 May 2013 09:48:22 -0400

Favorite moment of the series.

Just found a list I made drunkenly a few days ago of things I...

Fri, 03 May 2013 17:29:13 -0400

Just found a list I made drunkenly a few days ago of things I want for my birthday. I am a simple man.

FredFest. Things are gonna get weird.

Fri, 03 May 2013 14:28:49 -0400

FredFest. Things are gonna get weird.

Arriving at Buffalo finally and looking forward to the week-long...

Thu, 02 May 2013 19:34:28 -0400

Arriving at Buffalo finally and looking forward to the week-long drunken debauchery that is to begin tonight.